Bismillah...
If you’re honest with yourself, this probably isn’t how you thought it would look.
You wanted to do it properly.
You wanted halal.
You wanted marriage. Not confusion. Not a mess. Not something you would have to recover from later.
And yet here you are.
Maybe you stayed in something you knew was not right.
Told yourself it was temporary. That it would make sense soon.
Maybe it was a talking stage that quietly took more from you than you expected.
Or maybe your story is different.
Maybe you are married.
On paper, it is fine.
But something feels off.
Conversations do not land.
Small things turn into tension.
You love each other, but you do not feel fully at ease.
Or maybe you have never been in anything at all, and you just want to get it right the first time.
And the frustrating part is you are not careless.
You are not reckless.
You are not bad at this.
If anything, you are tired.
Tired of repeating patterns you cannot fully name.
Tired of second guessing your judgement.
Tired of wondering whether you are being patient, or just afraid of making the wrong decision again.
Because underneath everything is the same quiet question.
How do I do this properly, it’s the most important thing in my life?
If this feels familiar, keep reading.